Thursday, May 05, 2005 ;
2:29 PM
Back at Shuji's home, he was reading the diary.
"Shu-chan has been exceptionally good to me these days. But when i see you smile, i feel worried instead. Everytime i see you forcefully break into a smile, i hope that i can dissapear. Why my body had turned out this way? What did i do wrong? Is this a punishment? Ultimate weapon is top secret. I cannot talk about it with anyone. It is suffering through all these. That's why, I dun want you to see me in that form that day but it was a relief that you saw me. It's because i was afraid that you will get angry at me. Seeing you saying lies to yourself and treating me like a princess, I felt really happy but also felt very sad. But dun worry! I will become stronger. Much much more resilient. So, dun worry about me. Eventhough it has only been a short while, thank you very much for being my boyfriend. Gomen-nasai."
Shuji literally ran out of the house to find Chise! When he was near Chise's house, there she was, floating in the air, shimmering in white light.
Suddenly, I seem to understand everything. Chise din notice Shuji was there. And when she saw him, she panicked and fell to the ground in a heap.
"Chise!Are you all right?!"
And our hero tripped on his shoe lace and fall close to her...
Chise: "Gomen-nasai..."
Since that day, I had not seen her so hurt before. That is why i lied to myself thinking that it was a dream but once i did that, i only serve to hurt her more deeply. Chise frantically: "Tadaimasu!!" (I'm back)
Chise has some parts of her clothes torn off, especially her back where the wings had to portrude out. She was hugging herself, much like how girls do to hide their body.
They looked at each other in the eye. A long silence ensued.
"Idiot! What would happen if someone else saw you coming home like that?!What are you going to do then?"
"Sorry."
"Say sorry then can is it?"
"Gomen-nasai (>.<). But i wanna go home before my curfew..."
"Chise!"
"Har?"
"Okairi...."
(It means, welcome home. Personally, i feel very at ease when someone tells me that once i come home.)
"Tadaimasu......" Cries.
Shuji walked her home....
"Chise. What is 'ultimate weapon' all about? Have you asked the military?"
"They said that, this is a top secret thing..."
No matter how stupid I am, I finally realized it. That escaping from the truth, could only hurt Chise. And make her lonelier still. "No one else knows about this except you Shu-chan. My Dad, my mom, my younger brother do not know of this. The lieutenants tell me not to tell this to anyone and even if i could, i would not want to talk about it."
"Then dun tell this to anyone."
"Eh?"
"We are a couple. Just the two of us know, it's enough."
"Then this will be our little secret ok?"
"Yea, if our parents know this we're dead."
Both of us decided that because we are lovers, we will keep this a secret between us. And with it, continue living our lives. One beautiful picture!!!
And...err..someone dunno what the italic means...so....they are what Shuji is saying in his heart....
do you guys like the story so far? It might not touch you yet but if you are patient enough to continue... you will find asking yourself the very basic issue in life.... and you will ponder and ponder and decide.....
light my way ♥
