Friday, April 08, 2005 ;
7:21 PM
I had a dream. Well, it has already been like days ago but surprisingly i can still remember it very well. I dreamt about Ma Hui San, yeah, the gurl in my primary skool. She was just there, 2 seats away from me. I was shocked but delighted to see her there. There she was sporting that smile i used to see so often, the smile that radiates her whole face and makes me put up this face ( ^_^ ). I wanted to call out to her but...haihz... just gone like that... like in those movies where after something that is blocking u passed and the person is gone d. Sad case.
Frankly speaking, i dun remember much about back then. I got transferred to Chung Kwok Primary School when i was Std. 3. I gotta go through some exams to see which class i'll be put in. So in the end, i got into Class 3T2, and i arrived together with a gurl. You see, i dun know who is this gurl at that time, i dun even know her name at all !And i really can't believe what the whole class had to say, "Ni Men Liang Ge Shi Qing Lu Ar? " ( Both of you are bf/gf ar? ) = ='' And the way they crammed over me, like srutinizing a rat specimen liddat.... i can especially remember that round face with spectacles....he looks so... funny ! Considering that both of us are new transfer students, i guess the first fren i would get would be her. But somehow it din work out, and i end up with Kuen Thai. I forgot how we got to be frens ahaha !!Wait, getting back to the point, other than sticking together with Kuen Thai, the other person i stick with is none other than Hui San. Both of us, did a lot together. Like hanging out somewhere or while i'm having fun, i can always find her somewhere looking at me cheering me on. But i love best those times when we are ourselves together only, we chat and laugh so loud i think 2 classes away also can hear us ^ ^''
But then, i dun have that thought to be anybody's bf, or rather i dun understand the term of bf/gf. I know they would do stuff like kissing or holding hands, but other than that, i have absolutely no idea. I know there is something more to that, but i really dunno at all. So when Hui San suddenly tells me that she loves me, i got really shocked. And since then, i shifted to the T class where KT was, i avoided her at all costs. Everytime i saw her, even just a glimpse, i ran top speed at the opposite direction to get out of her sight. I did that without thinking, something like... it's a reflex. Actually, the reason i did that was because, i dunno how to reply to your questions and to deal with the new dimension in our relationship. So i chose to avoid it. However, i din completely ignore you. That time, when there was a talent competition, you said you wanted to sing a song, Peng You by Hua Jian but you din have the tape. I lent it to you mine so you can practise. And when you are up there singing, i couldn't help but feel proud you are making it and although you got third, i still feel really happy for you. Do you still remember that letter that you sent me, right after all of us got into our secondary schools? I still have it with me, still nicely kept, just like how you put it inside the letter and sent it to me. I really cherish those times when we were together. If anyone were to ask me, what is the 1st thing i remember most of when i was in primary school, it would have been you, laughing alongside me. I'm very sorry i din get to reply your letter because, just like how you wrote, i also dunno what should i write to you about. These days, i asked around our CKS batch about your whereabouts, some said you are studying in Bukit Nanas Girls School, some just reply dunno, but in your letter you said you went to Zhong Hua Du Zhong. Is it tough studying in that school? What was the reason you transfer ? Haihz, Hui San, if you are reading this, please contact me. I've tried the email you sent me, it's not working anymore. I hope i can hear from you soon. -JiaShen-
light my way ♥
